Being sick guided me to reclaim my creativity

Your body always knows wussup

Hiiii. So, I’ve been sick for the past two weeks or so. It’s been cycling through my family of five and so things have been a bit challenging over here. Caring for sick children and babies is hard as is and when I layered the fact that I wasn’t sticking to the new scheduled plan I had for my business, the frustration started to make me sad. The sadness amplified the imposter syndrome that I shoved into the back of my mind and that was quite annoying to deal with.

Then, one morning while I was playing with my kids, it hit me that most of my discomfort, sickness-wise, was in my throat. And when you see the world for what it is — pure energy — it dawned on me that being sick could be connected to my expression since it was directly affecting my throat chakra. This was really interesting to me because the new plan I had just created involved me showing up online more, sharing my voice and really putting myself out there in a much bigger way.

I started to think about all of the resistance that I was experiencing regarding this new beautiful schedule I had created and soon began to understand that the resistance was coming from my actual soul.

It’s as if my Higher Self was like, honey girl… this is not the way. But I wasn’t listening at all and so I was struck down with sickness 😂.

Something that has been coming up in a few of my most recent client sessions is that in order for us to show up as our full selves in life (whether it’s in our relationships or business, whatever), we need to be creating. We are creative beings, we are creators. We are constantly creating our reality and everything around us anyway and so we need to start intentionally being creative, letting our inner children free. This can be as simple as spending 5 minutes a day doing creating. The more consistently we show up to create the more benefit we’ll gain.

Recently I’ve seen a few things that have sparked my need to write again. When I started Aulani Alchemy I knew that I needed to go all in and put writing my second book and querying my first to the side. I don’t regret that choice and I knew that I would be able to feel when it was time for me to start writing again and the time is now. Getting the chills as I write this. I’m nervous to get back into it because there’s a small part of me thinking that if I’m not 10000% committed to Aulani Alchemy then she won’t flourish. A bigger part of me knows that the opposite is true.

I know that by loosening the reigns it’ll allow more space for magic to flow.

Plus, being more creative is just such a joyful place to be energetically and so you become a magnet to the things that you want and more. I know this is the right move because I can feel my heart expanding at the thought of it.

I also wrote a paragraph the other night and was like woah… the bitch is back! It was awesome.

Being sick was exactly what I needed after experiencing so much resistance and friction (that I was creating myself).

It has been a recalibration, guiding me toward what my goal has always been for myself and what I’m here to help others do: to authentically and unapologetically express myself. Listening to the call I asked myself… what do I actually want to express right now? It has allowed me to take back my expressive sovereignty. This illness has been a gift. A loving nudge from my guides and God Source that the direction I was heading was juuust of course.

Being sick fucking sucks. Being sick with kids sucks even harder. But I’m choosing to be grateful for this redirect because now I feel so much better about showing up online and for Aulani Alchemy.

If you’re facing some sort of pause or unexpected detour right now, where are you creating friction? What perspective shift can you find? What do you think your guides are trying to show you?

The world makes us believe that if you aren’t pushing through resistance head on and at full speed, then you aren’t doing it right. It’s a lie. We need to take it easy and allow space for magic to flow, we need to be playing and creating. And we need to do it in a way that feels good to US and no one else.

We are allowed to live a life of ease.
We are allowed to do what lights us up.

We fucking got this. I’m here for you! Let me know how you’re doing in the comments. ♥️